Some girls find their identity in their makeup. Some find it in their body shape. I find a huge part of my identity in my hair, as superficial as that sounds. I won’t deny it.
I recently cut off 14 inches of my hair to donate to cancer. As heartbreaking and difficult as it was to hold my cut off pony tail in my hand, it warms my heart to know that my hair is being put to use in a better place. I have to come to terms that hair will eventually grow back.
The last time I went to the hairdressers was before grade 9 picture day. After that experience, I swore I would never return because I didn’t like the way my hair was cut. Since then, I’ve been very skeptical of going to the hairdressers. They never seem to style your hair the way you imagine it in your head. At the end of the process, they show you the finished product with that little mirror, you smile and praise their hard work. Then you immediately go and cry on the ride back home and style it the way you can semi tolerate. It’s disastrous. We’ve all been there.
The next time I cut my hair, I was in grade ten.
This time, I left the hair cutting process to my friends. I sat in the backyard while I left the job in the hands of my completely inexperienced friends. As absurd as this situation sounds, I trusted my hair in the hands of my friends more than the hairdressers. After that day, I continued to let my hair grow on its own. When I went home for thanksgiving this year, I decided that it was definitely time for a change.
The thing I miss most after cutting my hair is not being able to style it as creatively as before. No more braids or long locks of curls. Hello short-stubby ponytail.
I found it so interesting that after I returned back to school, several people didn’t even notice I got my hair cut. 14 inches is a large amount, and I found it so hard to believe such a drastic change could go unnoticed.
Who knows, maybe after I grow my hair out again I will donate to Locks of Love again. After all, there are others out there who deserve and appreciate my hair more than I do.
http://www.locksoflove.org is the website if any of you are considering donating your hair to the cause!